Jehovah Rapha- The LORD Your Healer. In the two years since my life was changed in
ways I never imagined, God has been healing my broken heart. It has not happened in a miraculous instant, but
has rather been a miraculous process. God
is healing my heart step by step; each step coming at just the right time. As I said in my last post almost a year ago,
God has brought me through the valley of grief and I can think of the twins and
their family fondly but He still adds a touch of healing along the way. I do not want to forget what He has
done.
God gave me one of those healing moments
last month.
At the end of July my family and I were
invited to attend the twins’ 6th birthday party. (It will be two years ago next month that I
got the call from my mother letting me know that the girls I had felt led by
God to adopt were being adopted by someone else.) We eagerly accepted the invitation to the
birthday party. In anticipation of the
party I asked God to allow it to be another step in the healing process of my
heart. We attended the party and it was
a blessing to my heart. We were some of
the first people to arrive so we were able to have some one-on-one time with
the girls before the other 100 plus guest arrived. During the party I was content just to be
there, and being able to watch them play with the friends and see how happy
they were and how well they are doing.
Being at their party was gift enough but
God had another special healing time in mind.
This particular moment amidst the chaos of piñata destroying was a
special time from God where I believe He was showing me “Yes, I do love
you.” While some random kid was hitting
the piñata I saw one of the twins across the way and she made eye contact with
me. Immediately she came over to stand
right in front of me. She proceeded to
hand me her bag to hold while she went to retrieve piñata candy. Then her sister saw us and also came over to
stand with us. They could have stood
with any of the other people at the party whom they probably see more often and
know better now than they do me. But she
picked me out of the crowd and chose
to come stand by me. That may seem trivial to most reading this
but to me it was a precious gift from God.
The line from Chris Tomlin’s song Jesus Loves Me that says “Jesus, He
loves me, He loves me, He is for me.
Jesus, how can it be, He loves me, He is for me” kept going through my
mind. I later thought, “Jesus showed His love for
me enough by dying on the cross. This extra act of showing His love was not necessary but He did it anyway.” He wants to be a part of our daily
lives. He sees our struggles and our
broken hearts and He wants to heal us if we will let Him. Many times it is easy to run from God when
something bad happens because we wonder how God can allow this. But those are lies from the enemy and that is
exactly what he wants for us, to run from our Healer when that is the One we
should be running to.
“For I am convinced that neither death, nor
life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come,
nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to
separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” –Romans
8:38-39
So, from my experience let me encourage you
not to run away from your Healer or give up in your time of grief. Run as fast as you can to Him and know that
He wants to heal you. He loves you more
than you can ever know. If you are a
believer reading this, it is true that every aspect of our hurt may not be
fully healed until we reach heaven, but when we do, oh man, it will be a
complete and glorious healing indeed.
Let this be an encouragement to you to persevere and trust in our
Father’s love.
Romans 8:18 For I consider that the
sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory
that is to be revealed to us.
~ Kristin
